Negative

A few things happened recently.

I wanted to voice out. But I couldn't.

I wanted to cry, but I hold back my tears.

I kept telling myself to let it go, but I can't.

I tried to understand your problem, but would you understand mine ?

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Had a talk with SH today morning.

He's very right about one thing.

I am a person with negative thoughts.

I don't think positively.

I always think of the worse.

I don't know why ... AND i don't know how I can change this thoughts.

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I feel so alone, Like ... I'm all by myself.

The feeling is like ... I don't know how to describe.

Haiz ... I know there are some misunderstanding,

But ... I just couldn't make myself step out to explain it.

I have weird tempers. Really.

Those who knows me knows it.

So unhappy and sick these days ...

AND I still have to act as though I'm fine.

Telling jokes and ... etc ....

It's like a mask to cover up.

Well, I talking craps ... haha.

I'm just so tired about everything.

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Home ... School ... Work .... What the fuck !